Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Music

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dDxgSvJINlU&feature=youtube_gdata_player

I am a music lover. I tend to get picked on, in a manner of speaking, for knowing all the songs we play at work. Co-works have said "there is no way she knows this one.....how does she know this one too!?"

Music was always my escape, my release, my happy place and comfort zone. Its funny how one song can do so much for your grief and bring up so many daemons w the other.

I've never seen this video but own the album, this song helped me so much w the loss of Grammy, but today its brought up nothing but pain grief and deamons. I miss you so much mama....when you where called home I have happy you where no longer suffering but so unaware of how much I was going to lose when you left. When I lost you I lost everyone,  you wherr the glue that held us all together.  Being what feels like entirely alone sucks major and I would give anything to hear you say "I love you my daughter" one last time. I feel like I'm letting you down bc I can't stay focused on the present and am constantly in the past for future.  There is so much I wish I would have said, so much I wish I would have done. I'd give anything for a second chance but alas there are none. I miss you so much mama... till we are together again! JUST PEACHY alwayd and forever <3 <3 <3 <3